20/09/06, Wednesday, this morning while in the toilet, am thinking whether should i proceed to shower and go to work? i aint got the mood for it actually. So thinking hard while puffing the ciggie, I decided to go. Perharps I shouldnt ikutkan sangat perasaan malas.
and I regretted it. It was such a hectic day @ the office. Tons of shits to submit. (admiring Andy at home, sleeping, starting work only ard 11am) Last nite fetched Trisya & Qistina to West Coast for dinner. darn the food sucks. Upon reaching Teban, ND decided to send them back, I thought its kinda early as its only 2030hrs. But then I thought maybe just for tonite shouldnt be a problem. Around 2200hrs I went up to mum's to give her the last kiss for the day, damn am i disappointed, No its not that she was sleeping, she was having such a quality times wif Yaya n her kids, reading and laughing. While I popped in Yaya's room, ALL Trisya did was just glimpse at me and DATS it! she couldnt care less about me.
Arrrgh I felt so 'asshole' today at office. I cant help it as its in me. I would correct things if it appears wrong to me. In the end, I felt that I am doing almost everything here. Pheepphhewww the sight of Old haggard Shanti made me wanna puke all day long, also the look of Mei & Nilima. UuurrGhhh Gosh I got too much hatred for all these pussies. Its 1548hrs, darn that asshole andy never called me yet. HUH im too stress out today peeps, I cant blog well. Too much anger in me, I need to go home, shower and RELAX before stress out again once i reach teban. Oooo What a Life I am having! Ya Allah