Ahaha. Its been at least 6 mths ago since I last post some stuffs here.

Its 1313hrs now and just had my lunch. Spicy squid curry.. yummy.

Its my 2nd week being a housewife now.

Suprisingly, being a housewife is much much much more tiring than a working woman.

I made up my mind to put an end to working life and want to concentrate on being a great wife and a good mum. BUT GODDAMN, after I tender my resignation, the govt actually started a new scheme, a better scheme for pregnant working mum. Every morning getting 3sya to school is already a BIG headache. Kids are really hard to work with. You gotta have fresh new ideas to compromise with them. By 11am, I should have the idea on what to cook for the day, busy in the kitchen with laundry and all. Usually by 2pm I need to get things done before fetching 3sya at 1500hrs. Phew. Half day gone with still much to do...

:) I am now 17 weeks with my 2nd child. This coming Wednesday are scheduled for my next appt with my gynae. I am already in my mid of the pregnancy. This one is pretty hard for me than what I experienced when im preggy with 3sya. Experiencing pregnancy with 3sya 3 yrs ago was a fun and wonderful journey. It's a perfect one until reaching the end of the terms when my gynae informed about a lil complications I had with the pregnancy. But I got through it fine and gave birth to 3sya in a normal labour way. Nice.

But for this 2nd pregnancy, I felt weak and sick easily. Emotionally wreckage. haha. Got tired easily too. Nowadays I felt the fluttering feeling quite frequently. sweet huh.

I miss the lads back at work. Those moments and laughters. There will be a gathering this coming Friday with them. Dinner at Bali Thai. I do hope nothing will come up to stop me from going.

Alrighty, its 1335hrs and I need a short rest before getting ready to fetch 3sya.

Gonna lay my head for a while... :)

Its 13 Feb 08, eve of St Valentine's Day..

Time's 1429hrs, Cold & zzzZZzzz easily to doze off anytime..
Filled tummy with a heavy BRUNCH.. Felt guilty for having it, as the feeling of hunger is much mo satisfying.
Again.. I am so Sleeeeeeeppyyy.. (Should have not eaten anything : {

Last 11th Feb, afta work we had a Lunar Dinner @ Taka's Seoul Gardens = SUCKS :D
The Non Muslim had their @ Crystal Jade, heard most of them commented that it = SUCKS too :D
Hahaha..

Today After work, to MHotel for a gym session then to BBDC for my Auto Car practical.. Busy schedules for a bored life :S

Am at home now. Tuesday, 1200hrs. On leave from work as Im going over to my mum's place in a while.
3sya started school yesterday. She did it fine, with not a sign of tears. She made it well, Im so proud. Pixs will be uploaded soon. I m just too lazy to upload them now.
Help mum out sorting her new place and went over to IKEA last evening for some misc shopping spree. Over the weekend, ND bought a new mattress that cost way too expensive = = = SGD1500+ :O
Its better be good.

Wasssssssuuuuuuuuuuup...
Its FRIDAY!!! The morning was cool, Boss aint around.. Its 1143hrs & I felt LAZY that lead to SLEEPY.. My boss was unwell for the past week, sms him but no reply. I hope He is doing fine tho'. Last nite went for my practical, Instructor advised that I should focus more on my safety checks as my driving and courses are good enough.. *wink* Driving test will be this coming 10 Apr 2008. I DO HOPE I COULD MAKE IT ONLY ONCE, PLEASE GOD HELP ME!!!
Took 187 from BBDC to home, plugged ears with music + soothing smses, really helps after a day of sufferings. Work is fine but not great. I was fucked for something that I did not do & dats pretty sad ):
The girls planned for another gathering tonite but I dont think I am able as mum's moving from my place to hers. URGH! Back to square One For me. Daily weekday routine will be work in the morning, To teban for 3sya in the evening, home near wee hours just to sleep and NO LIFE.

Darn I am full now, had Subway's CheeseSteak for breakfast and I got to make sure NO LUNCH for me today.

Later.. MUUUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuAAcks.

30 Jan 2008
IM SLEEPY at work now. Slept around 4am+. that late due to a gathering getout to Johor with the people.. hehee Had LATE or shall I called it EARLY breakfast.. SEDDAAAAAP...
I hurt my thigh earlier this morning while boarding the cab to work.. damn it hurts till now..

Sat 26th Jan 2007
Off to town around 3pm shopping with Emma. Browsing here and there and end up nothing to get except for a black half cardi. Had tons of laffs camwhoring. KECOH!! Look at these la... ROZIE, JGN JELES!

haha. Then around 10.30pm Yan called me up ready to fetch me to Clarke Quay. Meetup with my Bro, Zai & Wife, Bala too! ND joined us around 1am+ partied and drank up till Pump Room closed. But the mood to party aint subside yet so we moved on to Attica..Once we are there, I started to party wen we moved on to Attica's Top! haha TRANCE moves me..

Partied on till wee hours and took a cab to Clementi Rd for Breakfast..

The nite was awesome :D

say say HoOOOOoooooooooooo~~!! Hardogay HooOOOOOooooooo~~
hahaha. out of sudden recalling that caption from that famous icon from Japan.
Today's Friday, thank god. I planned well to take afternoon off BUT it was spoilt by a partner (again) arrrrgh urrrgh she kept on doing it. She somehow need to get a medical proceed la, WATEVA Laaaa. Afta work, ND fetched me to Singapore Expo for the John Little's Sale. I shopped for Innerwear mostly.
Since he's going fishing with his frens, he suggested that I should take Yan's train all the way from Pasir Ris to Jurong. It was fun tho'.

Last nite, partied hard to M.O.S, Pump room & Attica. Gathered with old sluts.
Darn its about more than 4 years since we all last met and had fun. It was sweet.
Sinfully sweet :D
Reached home in the wee hours, slept less than 3hrs and woke up to Work.
Hubbie aint too happy about it but I managed to sort things out with him

Need him to give me the space for the time being.
I miss him. I do. But Wat's wrong with our chemistry, we both are unsure :(

Life In Mono - Mono
-------------------------------------
The stranger sang a theme
From someone else’s dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can’t seem to recall
When you came along
Ingenue
Ingenue I just don’t know what to do ...
The tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can’t seem to forget
When you came along
Ingenue

Got these from emails today:
> > > > > CAPRICORN December 21 - January 19> > > > >> > > > >
Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can be seething with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.

CAPRICORN -
The Passionate LoverLove to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy and love to take it easy. But when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Alwaysgets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to win against othe r signs especially Gemini's in sports. Likes to cook but would rather go out to eat at good restaurants. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

Date: 23 Jan 2008

Received Baby's SMS regarding tonite's Ladies NiteOut wif Zura & Mimi. I actually planned to Bugis Village with Emma beforehand. I decided to join the Sluts instead as Zura will be flying off to California back soon. Emma, if you're reading this, I am sorry but I hope you understand my situation. Suprisingly, ND let me go willingly with reminders to as and when give him a call and FUNNY it is, He requested me to take shots of tonite's niteout (nampak sangat tak percaya..) :O

Arrgh Stress over what to wear tonite. Errrrmmm... nak pakai apa ehhhhhh??!!!

I left early from work yesterday to catch the train as soon to get to Along's place.

Now at my desk, KEBUNTUAN tak berpunya kebendaan yang hendak di buat. BOSAN.COM

Missing U bad..

These 2 pix were taken at "Ah Mei's Toast" around 2300hrs+ while waiting for Yan's call for a drinking meetup around his place. It was a sudden "last minute" plan. :P

So, around 0100hrs we met up with Yan, Batcha & GF and Tajuddin.. Hang & chilling around Yan's hood. With a 1litre of Chivas, 4 drinker (including myself) oh yeah It was noisy, full of lafters and lust. haha. Then around 5am, Yan drove us to Boon Lay for a plate of Prata.

Reached home around 6am+, walked like a zombie and slammed myself to the bed. Yup, didnt even remove my lenses. I woke up around 10am, and got a special 'breakfast' from ND. haha. Told ya, the drinking session was lusty.

OOoo. Its 26.09.2006. The time is 1555hrs and I want it to be 1730hrs so that I could get the hell outta here.
Ya, as usual I am at work now. Well that's the only time I could be online. I had thought of getting a laptop soon, will keep u updated soon about it. I am not in the office yesterday, Mon 25.09.2006
The moment I woke up to work, I felt dizzy and cramped in my tummy due to my early days of menses. I called ND up and informed him that Im skipping work and I went back to my sleep. It was around 1435hrs when I opened up my eyes. I dragged myself out of the bed and to the kitchen. I opened up the kitchen windows to let the breeze in. With half eyed open, I washed my face and headed to the couch and light up a ciggie. Eww the ciggie tasted horrible. Watched "Invicible Hereos" which starred Emile Hirsch (cute jerkass), Sigourney Weaver and Jeff Daniels. Its a family movie drama about a family tragic start after a tragic accident happened and they lost a son and brother. Moving, fun, kinky cos there's this 1 part after Hirsch was high on ecstacy, he and his buddy slept wif each other. Oooo Gay hahah. But he so cute tho` reminded me of Kurt Cobain also River Phoenix. After the show ended, it was so damn bored alone at home. I flicked thru the channels but nothing interesting was on. I called up ND and darn he was busy. I kept on smoking and flicking the channels until around 1925hrs ND reached home. He rushed to his shower and off we drove to Teban to meet darling Trisya.
She was jumping with joy the moment she heard my voice calling for her at the door. I grabbed and hugged her hard. She showed me gestures as if she's missed me bad too. Time is not on our side yet baby, when you grew up a little more, mummy will be sleeping with you each night ok. As usual, Mummy will sing to you and you will dance that small steps of yours to the left and right. The way you swinging your butt is adorable and it makes everyone laughed. Why should we wait till you grow a little is because, you will be staying with mummy and baba everyday while we work u can be in school. Once mummy knock off from work, mummy will fetch you home together. As for now, you stay with Granny ok dear. Mummy & Baba cant wait for the moment too sayang. Just remember that we both LOVES you alot, alot, alot, alot!! You are the reasons for us now.
Its only 1628hrs arrrgh and I still have 1hr to go before I could clock out! I guess I will stop here as "today the weather is fine without any sign of thunderstorm, its shiny and windy". Peace out peeps \m/

BORED in the office today. Judy was off (1/2 day), as claimed by her that she got an E-Filling class. Tons of shits still had not settled yet, but I aint got the mood to do anything. Spent half of my day updating my blog, changed the layout and such. ND called and let me know that he will be back late from work today, perhaps only able to fetch me around 2300hrs or so. I planned to jog later but let's see. The jog will be more fun if my mp3 earpiece was in a better much condition. Ya the earpiece suck! I cant hear anything unless i meddled with it. I had plans for a 3D/2N chalet getaway for this New Yr @ Sentosa Costa Sands. Still enquiring around tho. I miss Trisya. Arrrgh Y DO EACH DAY SUCKS?!

20/09/06, Wednesday, this morning while in the toilet, am thinking whether should i proceed to shower and go to work? i aint got the mood for it actually. So thinking hard while puffing the ciggie, I decided to go. Perharps I shouldnt ikutkan sangat perasaan malas.
and I regretted it. It was such a hectic day @ the office. Tons of shits to submit. (admiring Andy at home, sleeping, starting work only ard 11am) Last nite fetched Trisya & Qistina to West Coast for dinner. darn the food sucks. Upon reaching Teban, ND decided to send them back, I thought its kinda early as its only 2030hrs. But then I thought maybe just for tonite shouldnt be a problem. Around 2200hrs I went up to mum's to give her the last kiss for the day, damn am i disappointed, No its not that she was sleeping, she was having such a quality times wif Yaya n her kids, reading and laughing. While I popped in Yaya's room, ALL Trisya did was just glimpse at me and DATS it! she couldnt care less about me.
Arrrgh I felt so 'asshole' today at office. I cant help it as its in me. I would correct things if it appears wrong to me. In the end, I felt that I am doing almost everything here. Pheepphhewww the sight of Old haggard Shanti made me wanna puke all day long, also the look of Mei & Nilima. UuurrGhhh Gosh I got too much hatred for all these pussies. Its 1548hrs, darn that asshole andy never called me yet. HUH im too stress out today peeps, I cant blog well. Too much anger in me, I need to go home, shower and RELAX before stress out again once i reach teban. Oooo What a Life I am having! Ya Allah

Dated as 19.09.2006
SG and Judy are Back! Phew Lucky They dont 'used' me too much, at least I had some space even to update my blog.
The moment I woken up from my deep sleep since last nite, I had so much hatred for Andy. Or maybe I shouldnt called it hatred cos I dont even know how or what the feeling towards him was. Im clueless about how I felt about him these days. Are we happy, or are we arent? I guess he's clueless about how he felt about me too. Ahhh Too much of negatives and disadvantages that came from him. He showed and Proved to me on how I should Judge him. Why?
Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time and just be as GOOD friends with him all along.
We r much happier then. Really. Why do feelings get mixed up between our friendship that time? Why does feelings develops during our Greatest times as BestFrens? Why does the feeling Grew Till Our friendship knot was blissfully tied forever?

Today is 18.09.2006

Its Monday, and Its bored. Darn for the 1st f*cking time, I just wasted my time doing NOTHING absolutely nothing in the office today. I even got the chance to clear my yahoo inbox of 5563 unread messages. ahahaha~ silly. I went to blog site and start to search for blogs of names that came to my mind. Looked for 'United By Fate' but was redirect to their space instead. I read some of the posts and seems that the line up for them are changing. Looking for a female vox to called death syren! ahahah. Can I? (lolx) UBF = Arif that actually created the impact to my life. I checked out their pics, and YEAH he do looked different! looked more matured than before. Looked more. .ummmphhh* ahahahaha. Oh well i request to add as a friend, and if its him who login, perharps well i dont know if he could still recall who am i, who we are. . B4

Its 1723hrs and im waiting for Andy to come and take me away from this place. Today sucks big time ( i dunno why whereas I should be glad) Judy n SG are away from Spore. Judy MIGHT come back tomorrow whereas SG Im not sure, its his Company so suka hati dia la apa dia nak buat. Felt tired, thought about not meeting Trisya, but I cant.
I NEED TO KISS HER MASAM LEHER!! LOLx

Not so hungry now, but Darn Im cold for the whole day in the office. COOL weather that adds the boredom, cos this kinda weather is fit to SLEEP
This coming weekend will be the start of Ramadhan, I hope I could make it this year. Insya'allah
Hmm, let ya know that Adik & Diana are expecting. Congrats.
Now wat about me, I have not been getting PMS since August, Did the test but Negator.
Is it due to stress? I don't Know. Am I having my 2nd one? I don't Know.
*sigh* Rrriiinggg, (Andy called) Ok folks, need to sign off, he is here to get me outta here!

24.07.2006
Ewwww Its Monday and Im not in mood for work today. Weekend sucks for me, not to anywhere, just chilling @ home wif mum and Girl.
Got into a tiff wif mum and Andy yest, DaMn i FeLt Hated by everyone for doing nothing. What Crap.
Today, I Find it sick looking @ Shanti. Darn Hypocrite. Shirley pissed me off to, well also JUST by looking at her face. Nilima Sucks, she thought she's the preetiest bitch. Get a Life Slut!
Judy so far so good. Oh yeah, we got a replacement for Irene, her name was Hla Hla. Ol bitch whom i found it hard to communicate and interact and DARN Bad Breath!!! Bad breath such as Marnelli.
Arrgh EveryOne sucks here! Let me Out of this place! HELP

myspace layout

Sat nite to the movie "Nacho Libre". Funny shits.

Rindu Trisya and Luv Her Much.
oxox

12.06.06
Monday again. *sigh*
Rushing for the ISO questionaires that I submitted to all project managers, but damn they still their own blooDy sweet little time. What crap. Gave me hard shits day by day. What the use of designated as "A/C" whereas you got to be as "Jack of all trade". Irene left us last Friday, and now she's kicking ass and having fun in Perth. What a Luck. But here I am busting my ass at the office.
Pathetic me, looking forward for my holiday this Sept to Sepang/KL. Haha.
Mum was at my place last weekend, how I wish she's there everyday. I love her and want to take care of her and dad as well. But, situation wouldnt allow me to fulfil that yet. If Only 'Long' sold that unit and move away then I will 'snatch' mum n dad.. Andy doesnt mind too. Great that he understands me even tho he could be such a pain in my bouncy ass sometimes. Overall, today was fine. No one kinda pissed me off (yet).
Last Friday, took a short joyride from Sarah's Mazda 6 Sports.. Expensive Cars do have their standards.
But, to me having a sporty and fast car but if you are a LOUSY driver, it's not worth it. You got to have the 'spirit' in you to gain the satisfaction on such cars.. (Im not saying her tho) Up to individual to decide.
Its now 16.30hrs. Cant Wait for another hour then Im Leaving this Hell.

Check Out the date.
06.06.06 Love This Date
Its raining outside. But im neither feeling warm or cold, guess im feverish.
Irene's resignation was confirmed today. She got to leave this Hell this Friday. Lucky Her.
Once she left, Im sure gonna be filled up with loads. F*ck.

I miss my girl.

Love both of u.