OOoo. Its 26.09.2006. The time is 1555hrs and I want it to be 1730hrs so that I could get the hell outta here.
Ya, as usual I am at work now. Well that's the only time I could be online. I had thought of getting a laptop soon, will keep u updated soon about it. I am not in the office yesterday, Mon 25.09.2006
The moment I woke up to work, I felt dizzy and cramped in my tummy due to my early days of menses. I called ND up and informed him that Im skipping work and I went back to my sleep. It was around 1435hrs when I opened up my eyes. I dragged myself out of the bed and to the kitchen. I opened up the kitchen windows to let the breeze in. With half eyed open, I washed my face and headed to the couch and light up a ciggie. Eww the ciggie tasted horrible. Watched "Invicible Hereos" which starred Emile Hirsch (cute jerkass), Sigourney Weaver and Jeff Daniels. Its a family movie drama about a family tragic start after a tragic accident happened and they lost a son and brother. Moving, fun, kinky cos there's this 1 part after Hirsch was high on ecstacy, he and his buddy slept wif each other. Oooo Gay hahah. But he so cute tho` reminded me of Kurt Cobain also River Phoenix. After the show ended, it was so damn bored alone at home. I flicked thru the channels but nothing interesting was on. I called up ND and darn he was busy. I kept on smoking and flicking the channels until around 1925hrs ND reached home. He rushed to his shower and off we drove to Teban to meet darling Trisya.
She was jumping with joy the moment she heard my voice calling for her at the door. I grabbed and hugged her hard. She showed me gestures as if she's missed me bad too. Time is not on our side yet baby, when you grew up a little more, mummy will be sleeping with you each night ok. As usual, Mummy will sing to you and you will dance that small steps of yours to the left and right. The way you swinging your butt is adorable and it makes everyone laughed. Why should we wait till you grow a little is because, you will be staying with mummy and baba everyday while we work u can be in school. Once mummy knock off from work, mummy will fetch you home together. As for now, you stay with Granny ok dear. Mummy & Baba cant wait for the moment too sayang. Just remember that we both LOVES you alot, alot, alot, alot!! You are the reasons for us now.
Its only 1628hrs arrrgh and I still have 1hr to go before I could clock out! I guess I will stop here as "today the weather is fine without any sign of thunderstorm, its shiny and windy". Peace out peeps \m/

BORED in the office today. Judy was off (1/2 day), as claimed by her that she got an E-Filling class. Tons of shits still had not settled yet, but I aint got the mood to do anything. Spent half of my day updating my blog, changed the layout and such. ND called and let me know that he will be back late from work today, perhaps only able to fetch me around 2300hrs or so. I planned to jog later but let's see. The jog will be more fun if my mp3 earpiece was in a better much condition. Ya the earpiece suck! I cant hear anything unless i meddled with it. I had plans for a 3D/2N chalet getaway for this New Yr @ Sentosa Costa Sands. Still enquiring around tho. I miss Trisya. Arrrgh Y DO EACH DAY SUCKS?!

20/09/06, Wednesday, this morning while in the toilet, am thinking whether should i proceed to shower and go to work? i aint got the mood for it actually. So thinking hard while puffing the ciggie, I decided to go. Perharps I shouldnt ikutkan sangat perasaan malas.
and I regretted it. It was such a hectic day @ the office. Tons of shits to submit. (admiring Andy at home, sleeping, starting work only ard 11am) Last nite fetched Trisya & Qistina to West Coast for dinner. darn the food sucks. Upon reaching Teban, ND decided to send them back, I thought its kinda early as its only 2030hrs. But then I thought maybe just for tonite shouldnt be a problem. Around 2200hrs I went up to mum's to give her the last kiss for the day, damn am i disappointed, No its not that she was sleeping, she was having such a quality times wif Yaya n her kids, reading and laughing. While I popped in Yaya's room, ALL Trisya did was just glimpse at me and DATS it! she couldnt care less about me.
Arrrgh I felt so 'asshole' today at office. I cant help it as its in me. I would correct things if it appears wrong to me. In the end, I felt that I am doing almost everything here. Pheepphhewww the sight of Old haggard Shanti made me wanna puke all day long, also the look of Mei & Nilima. UuurrGhhh Gosh I got too much hatred for all these pussies. Its 1548hrs, darn that asshole andy never called me yet. HUH im too stress out today peeps, I cant blog well. Too much anger in me, I need to go home, shower and RELAX before stress out again once i reach teban. Oooo What a Life I am having! Ya Allah

Dated as 19.09.2006
SG and Judy are Back! Phew Lucky They dont 'used' me too much, at least I had some space even to update my blog.
The moment I woken up from my deep sleep since last nite, I had so much hatred for Andy. Or maybe I shouldnt called it hatred cos I dont even know how or what the feeling towards him was. Im clueless about how I felt about him these days. Are we happy, or are we arent? I guess he's clueless about how he felt about me too. Ahhh Too much of negatives and disadvantages that came from him. He showed and Proved to me on how I should Judge him. Why?
Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time and just be as GOOD friends with him all along.
We r much happier then. Really. Why do feelings get mixed up between our friendship that time? Why does feelings develops during our Greatest times as BestFrens? Why does the feeling Grew Till Our friendship knot was blissfully tied forever?

Today is 18.09.2006

Its Monday, and Its bored. Darn for the 1st f*cking time, I just wasted my time doing NOTHING absolutely nothing in the office today. I even got the chance to clear my yahoo inbox of 5563 unread messages. ahahaha~ silly. I went to blog site and start to search for blogs of names that came to my mind. Looked for 'United By Fate' but was redirect to their space instead. I read some of the posts and seems that the line up for them are changing. Looking for a female vox to called death syren! ahahah. Can I? (lolx) UBF = Arif that actually created the impact to my life. I checked out their pics, and YEAH he do looked different! looked more matured than before. Looked more. .ummmphhh* ahahahaha. Oh well i request to add as a friend, and if its him who login, perharps well i dont know if he could still recall who am i, who we are. . B4

Its 1723hrs and im waiting for Andy to come and take me away from this place. Today sucks big time ( i dunno why whereas I should be glad) Judy n SG are away from Spore. Judy MIGHT come back tomorrow whereas SG Im not sure, its his Company so suka hati dia la apa dia nak buat. Felt tired, thought about not meeting Trisya, but I cant.
I NEED TO KISS HER MASAM LEHER!! LOLx

Not so hungry now, but Darn Im cold for the whole day in the office. COOL weather that adds the boredom, cos this kinda weather is fit to SLEEP
This coming weekend will be the start of Ramadhan, I hope I could make it this year. Insya'allah
Hmm, let ya know that Adik & Diana are expecting. Congrats.
Now wat about me, I have not been getting PMS since August, Did the test but Negator.
Is it due to stress? I don't Know. Am I having my 2nd one? I don't Know.
*sigh* Rrriiinggg, (Andy called) Ok folks, need to sign off, he is here to get me outta here!